So, two months later and things are just worse. I need help. I'm constantly thinking about you. Why do you haunt me? I have developed vastly detailed conspiracy theories and paranoia from dwelling on issues and details. I preached about assuming things, yet I do the same. Why am I such a sap? Why can't I move on? I've reverted back to the old me. The one who doesn't care about anything anymore, especially himself. Someone should drag me out onto the street and shoot me like a rabid dog.
One of my colleagues offered to hook me up on New Year's, I said sure, but will see.