So, I've become really self-aware lately. I'm doing a lot of things I haven't done in years, like getting back into photography, and drawing. I've started reading books other then Sci-Fi / fantasy novels. I just finished 1984 last week and am reading High Fidelity and have Kerouac’s On the Road on the night stand for my next read. I've started to work out (at home) more regularly and began meditating for twenty minutes before I go to bed. I also haven't smoked a cigarette in like three weeks. I'm not sure I understand why this is all happening and where the need to do these things has come from. I feel as though I trying to prove something, probably to myself.